If you do not have any sense of spirit
You don’t have any sense of the specific, in this moment, nutrients your own body needs right this second either
and both are running along without our uninformed consent and permission
there are a lot of things that I didn’t believe for a long time, which ended up being true the whole time I wasn’t believing in them. Humbling in a gratifying way.
I really do want this universe, this life, to be BIGGER,
To be BEYOND my understanding . . .
I know that it is and I pretend that it is not.
This is my soul’s ache. It’s not so much a pain as it is a yearning. It’s wanting to take a deep, cleansing breath, not just once, but repeatedly . . . again and again and again . . . to breathe freely . . .
. . . when you’ve been raised on cigarettes, a fresh breath can be startling. . .
and not just for your lungs . . .
Because, if life and the cosmos are really only just what I have come to understand, or even what we, as a collective, have come to understand . . .
it would be paltry indeed
But this life is far more than my understanding. Deepening our appreciations rather than our understandings might be worth a try.