Trailing Consciousness

The exact same zest that you experience in cheating death,

in living on the edge, on pushing the boundaries of pain . . .

. . . is the exact same zest we can experience when, and as, we push the boundaries of our other enabling energies, our playful, joyful, sharing freely energies . . .

. . . when we seek goodness with openness, we will find it in abundance. 

When we seek goodness with trepidation, we will scarcely find it due to the limits of our searching. 

We’ve been playing it safe with our hopes, the upside of seeking and seeing the goodness in one another . . .

. . . and full-on, non-stop with our fears . . .

We tell ourselves that it’s because we’re afraid of death, the ultimate fear, and I tell you, that’s untrue. It’s not death itself. It’s the unknown of it all that we fear. If we knew what came after death, we tell ourselves, we wouldn’t have to be afraid . . . but what comes after that would still be another unknown for us to be afraid of . . . endlessly . . .

We live swimming in the unknown and the unknowable . . . every moment is new . . . we are all full speed ahead into newness every single second and we can neither keep up nor catch up with ourselves . . . all too full, too fast, too continuous to control or understand.

How can anyone possibly understand something fully, or even at all, as they are going through the experience itself?

That was never the instructions. We were asked to love one another and to help one another as we each rode in the comet trails of our spirits. We’re not racing one another as we blaze our lights together.