When I’ve turned to face what I had convinced myself was chasing after me,
the darkness that always seemed connected to me somehow,
it wasn’t me, or at least, it didn’t feel like a part of me.
I get no vibe, no sensations from this dark area near me.
I get so confused about that.
I “sense” lots of stuff especially stuffs this close by,
I mean so close by.
It seems to move or mimic my movements so precisely that it’s spooky.
But I can “sense” nothing coming “out” of it.
It’s like a void or a vacuum…
and as I focus more of my attention
into trying to get a “grasp” of what it is…
It never gets any closer.
It stays just out of reach.
It’s like a dark mirage to nowhere.
In terror, I turn, and start to run away,
faster & faster eyes squeezing frightly and fully closed
mostly with an occasional side glance…
yep – run faster.
This is our modern circumstance.
Exhausted & disheartened, we slow down.
We stop running.
We open our “seeing” and are flooded with light.
We turn to face the void.
And it’s our shadow.
We’re already in the light.